The List

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There are so many things I want to do in this life, so I'm writing a list of things I need to do and finish, while I go through this fight.  Not in order.

1.  Go to the Hajj (Dear Allah, please grant me this wish)
2.  Watch the end of Game of Thrones
3.  Trip to Krabi with Azwat and do the rock climbing
4.  Keep baking cakes (even though sugar is now off-limits for me)
5.  Watch Star Wars!
6.  Adopt a baby, someone I will love with all my heart
7.  More run & bike with Azwat
8.  Learn swimming
9.  Enter a triathlon
10. Start & finish the miniature house I bought in Osaka
11. Read the Quran fluently
12. Love, care and look after Azwat till the end of our lives
13. Help the poor, less fortunate with my dear Suzana (will write about her)
14. Ensure Jaime is doing ok, with someone who loves her (someone who deserves her!)

More to come.

Forever

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