Grateful

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I've been reminded today, that my world is not ending.  Oh yeah, the Big C is in me, but there are so many things to be grateful of, and I thank Allah for this.  

Let's see some of the things I'm blessed with:

  • Being alive
  • I have the best mom in the world
  • I had the best dad in the world, Allah bless his soul
  • I have the best husband in the universe - he is funny, loving, romantic, and I love his determination.
  • I have great brother and sister in law, with lovable kids.  Love them to bits
  • My mom in law is always kind to me
  • I've been blessed with good health all my life (till now)
  • I have a good job that pays the bills and some splurge once in a while
  • I cook well (that works since I love food soon much!)
  • I'm a good baker, although cake decorating is not really my thing
  • I have a good comfortable home 
  • I have wonderful friends - from childhood friends, to teenage friends, college friends, ex & current colleagues.
  • All my mistakes - I learnt from them
  • Life challenges as all of them shaped me to be the person I am today.

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