Thriving & Celebrating Life...

Back at home. But all I could do is lie down, sleep, eat and drink. Not much different from being in the hospital. Thankfully appetite is not too bad, although I can't eat anything too spicy yet. One glaring thing though is my mushy legs. I can't really walk fast, more like a sloth. After about a week home, I managed to go down for morning walk. I have a cool looking cane with me for support.  So that's what I do every morning for at least 30 mins. I walk around my apartment blocks. Round and round, me and my cane. Slowly like a sloth. Frustrating coz I could really feel how weak my legs are. But hopeful as always this will strengthen them. And I get to breathe the fresh morning air.  Azwat usually will walk with me and we'll chat, or argue, or he will do his song and dance haha! Good times. After about a month, I stopped using the cane woohoo! Syukur alhamdulillah.   And I never stop the morning walk.  I even manage to do 5km occasionally. Road to marathon (one day?...

I got sick.  I think it was because of the tapering from steroids and reaction from the new chemo too. High fever, so had to be brought to the emergency despite my protests.  When I reached the hospital emergency, my temperature was 39C. Doctor that treated me informed that I will be administered antibiotics via IV through my chemo port. And I had to be admitted for the night for observation. While I was in the ward, my breathing worsened. I was unable to go to the bathroom without assistance. Getting there was like a battle, it felt like I have done a 500m sprint! And after awhile, Azwat had to carry me to the bathroom as I was unable to walk. And I was unable to breathe without oxygen too. It's so rapid!  A couple of days later with multiple blood taking for testing. The doctors still couldn't come up with any conclusion on why my condition is so bad.  At 4am of Christmas Eve, I couldn't breathe, even with highest oxygen level. The attending doctor said I must be b...